The Living Years

This weekend my cousin Michael is coming into town from Missouri.
I haven't seen him since last summer. There is something about
spending time with family I don't see very often, that takes me
back to my childhood. And also consumes me with thoughts about
my own mortality. Michael's parents have passed on. My Father has
passed on. It's always weird for me to think we are all gonna die
someday. It kind of sucks, having to get old and watch the ones you
love die. Don't get me wrong I enjoy life. But hate the idea of
seeing loved one after loved one pass on. As much as I love my life
now. I often think about the past and miss those days. I miss the
many relationships I took for granted and are now gone. So I guess
I just need to keep on living for today and make the most out of
todays present relationships.